Series:  Strange Tales   Story:  Ghosts   by M Kizzia   part 5  

            “Come on.”  Mya said, taking the lead.  She grabbed Nathan’s hand before she stopped briefly at the hospital map on the wall.  She seemed to know where she was headed.  This time they took the stairs down one flight and she pulled him through the authorized personnel only hallway to enter a different wing of the hospital.  Nathan guessed where they were going, but he said nothing.  They spent a long time looking through the glass at all of the babies, but she did not want to go inside.  At last, Nathan thought they needed to change venues, so he asked as kindly as he could.

            “Are you hungry?”  Mya looked up at him with a forlorn expression that proposed never leave her face.  It broke Nathan’s heart to see it.  He realized that he missed the little girl smile that had meant so much to him and kept him steady, especially at the first.  Mya had accepted the truth before he did, and she kept him going with her smile.  She kept him from thinking too hard about it all and maybe becoming morose.  Little Mya had no morose in her until the subject of bumps and babies came up.  Now, she was in danger of becoming hopelessly mired in her own sense of loss and what would never be, and Nathan desperately wanted to save her from that.  She certainly deserved better than to be depressed forever.  “I could go for some Italian right now.  Do you like Italian food?”

            Mya looked up at him with her tear streaked face and those big brown eyes with their sadness etched into the black depths.  She said nothing, but she did not resist him when he took her hand and headed them toward the stairs.  Nathan hoped there was food left in the hospital cafeteria since the time was getting on, but he would not have been surprised if it was all cleaned up and put away for the night.  Hospitals, like grade schools, tended to run on a very strict schedule.

            The cafeteria was located on level B-1, which was ground level at the back of the building.  There was still some service, though only one worker behind the line, wiping a spill around the macaroni and cheese.  A couple of men and a few women in white coats were sitting around, talking quietly and nursing their coffee and tea, having pretty much finished eating.  Nathan supposed they were doctors, nurses, or more likely attendants of some sort hanging out to get the full extent of their breaks.  There were a few tables with dirty dishes, but the man behind the counter did not seem in any hurry to get out and clean them up.  Instead, the man looked at the clock on the wall as if waiting for the right moment to close.

            Nathan also looked.  It was nearly eight-thirty, perhaps five or five and a-half hours since the accident.  He brought Mya up to the line, but they quickly realized that they could not pick up the trays, plates or silverware.  Their hands simply passed through the items, and while it was a bit of a shock at first, Mya spent the next few minutes passing her hands through all sorts of things; and she nearly smiled at the sensation.

            Nathan looked at the food.  There was some spaghetti in a kind of dark brown crust that might have been an attempt at meat sauce.  It was real thick spaghetti and it did not look too appetizing.  Still, he would not have minded a taste, though to be honest, he was not hungry in the least.

            “I don’t think we can eat anymore.”  Mya said, putting her hands right into the hot macaroni and cheese and swirling them around with no effect on the dish or her hands whatsoever.  “But that’s OK, I wasn’t really hungry.”

            “Me neither.”  Nathan said, and he looked up to see a big man staring at the deserts.  To his surprise, the big man turned and looked right at them and with a quick comparison to the attendant behind the counter, Nathan recognized that this was another ghost.

            “I’m hungry.”  The man said.

            “You’re fat.”  Mya said as she stepped up beside Nathan.  She clicked her finger nails on the metal cafeteria rail a couple of times and Nathan thought she needed some chewing gum to complete the pre-teen picture.  “You should go on a diet.”

            “Screw you, kid.”  The fat man said.

            “That was very rude.”  Nathan turned and scolded Mya.  She looked up at him with some concern to be sure he still liked her.  She knew she was being rude, only now, after being scolded, she felt she paid her penalty and so she did not feel like saying she was sorry.

            The fat man looked down for a minute before turning his eyes again at the deserts.  “The doctor said it was the fat that killed me.  What does he know?  The quack.”  He looked at them again before his eyes were drawn back to that last piece of chocolate cake.  “I didn’t think it would be like this.”  He said, and he seemed to need to confess.  Nathan stayed to listen, so Mya stayed, too.  “I used to eat everything and anything I wanted.  Mom was a great cook, and there was always plenty of junk around the house, you know, cookies, chips, Hot Pockets, frozen waffles.  God, I can’t think about it.”  He paused to take in a deep breath.  “I didn’t think it would be like this.”  He began again.  “I pretty much lived my life whatever the hell way I wanted.  I didn’t let anyone tell me no.  I lost a couple of jobs, but screw them.  I screwed everyone I wanted and when I wasn’t screwing, I was eating.  God there was this one restaurant that made… but forget it.  I thought when I died, like it would not happen so quick.  I thought I still had years left to live and I thought I would straighten things out some when I got older.”  He looked at them again.  “I didn’t have the time.  It all went by so quick.”  He looked again at the cake and reached for it only to have his hand pass right through.  “I thought when I died all of these old habits would be taken away, you know?”  He looked up one last time and asked.  “Why are we still here?”

            “Maybe so you can have one last chance to straighten things out.”  Nathan suggested what he and Mya were both thinking.

            “Maybe you need to let go of some things.”  Mya suggested, reaching for Nathan’s hand which he readily gave her.

            The man merely nodded and then ignored them.  His hunger had him once again.

            Mya and Nathan went out from there wondering what to do next.  Then Nathan saw Mya yawn a big yawn and he thought they might find a deserted room in which to rest.  He led the girl back to the elevator.  He was feeling better than he had in years and feeling no pain at all, but he still was not sure about climbing a bunch of steps.  Fortunately, the elevator was empty at eight-forty-five in the evening.  They went again to the third floor, but Mya resisted seeing her grandmother.  Thus they wandered in the other direction, past 315, 314 and 313.  They found someone in room 312, and would have moved on if he had not shouted out to them.  When they entered the room, Nathan noticed the bed was stripped clean and the man was sitting on the edge of it, fully clothed as if waiting for a ride home.  There was another patient in the room, but he was sleeping.

            “What is going on?”  The man asked right away.  “I can’t get anyone to listen to me, not the doctors or nurses or anyone.”

            “What do you think is going on?”  Mya spoke right up before Nathan could get a word in.  Her words were not exactly meant to be rude as if to suggest the man was being stupid or something, but they came out that way and might have been taken that way.  Nathan pulled her hand up to his chest and patted her hand to keep her quiet, even as her grandmother had patted that same hand.

            “I don’t know.”  The man spoke honestly to them, but there was something else behind those blue eyes.  Nathan and Mya just stared into those eyes until the blue turned a little gray and the man turned his eyes to the floor.  “I think I am dead.”

            Mya almost said something, but Nathan hushed her and spoke instead.  “I think you may be right.”  He said calmly.

            The man slid off the bed and threw his fists up to cover his eyes.  He turned his back on them and began to spout.  “I have a wife and three kids who need me.  I can’t be dead.  You don’t understand.  I was just working on a big deal at work that was going to make my career.  We were going to be set for life after that, and… and I was going to be able to spend some quality time with Sharon and the kids.  I can’t be dead.  I never got the quality time.  It isn’t fair!”  He blustered himself out and despite the closed eyes and the fists over the eyes and also the fact that his back was turned, both Mya and Nathan knew he was crying, just a little.

            Nathan thought that you have to smell the roses every day as you go along or otherwise you will never catch them in bloom.  That was what his mother taught him, but of course he did not say that out loud.  He looked down.  Mya was being good.  She was feeling the man’s pain, and she looked up to get Nathan’s unspoken assent before she said anything at all.

            “It will be all right.”  She said.  “That is what I keep getting told, and…”  She looked up to catch Nathan’s eyes again.  “And I believe him.”  Nathan smiled, dropped Mya’s hand and threw his arm around her for a big squeeze.  He needed to hear that as much as she needed to say it.

            “What do you know?”  The man turned on them with a little anger.  They felt it, but not nearly as they felt the cruelty of the puppy owner, perhaps because this man was not among the living.  “You know nothing.  You don’t understand.  How could you?  A girl and a doddering old man.  I have to get back to work.  I have to finish the project.  I have to succeed.  I spent my whole life striving to be successful.  I got the right wife, the right kids, and the right job; and now, just when I am on the verge of reaching my dream, my only dream, I have it yanked out from beneath my feet.  It isn’t fair, I tell you.  It isn’t fair!”

            “I’m sorry.”  Nathan said.  It was the least he could say and probably also the most he could say.

            “Forget it.”  The man said, having vented for the moment.  He threw his hands out as if dismissing them.  “It isn’t your fault.  I wouldn’t expect you to understand.  There is nothing you can do about it.  Just leave me alone for a while.  Please.  I need to think about this.  I need to think.”  He sat again on the edge of the bed, closed his eyes, dropped his head, put his thumb to his temple and began to slowly rub his fingers across his forehead like a man in deep concentration.

            Nathan turned Mya by the shoulders until they faced the door, and before she could say anything else.  Then he withdrew his arm and took her hand once again.  Room 307 had two empty beds, and as Mya seemed to be yawning up a storm, he thought that this was as good as they were going to find.

            “Now we are definitely past my bedtime.”  Mya said.

            “Mine too.”  Nathan agreed, and he was not entirely joking.  Any time after nine o’clock was late for him.  “Do you want the bed by the door?”  He asked.  Normally, the gentlemanly thing would have been for him to take the bed by the door to protect her against any intruders.  At least that was the right instinct, but in this case, since she was already dead, he imagined there was not much that could hurt her, and he also imagined if they brought someone to the room in the middle of the night they would more than likely put the person in the bed by the window, interrupting him, not her.  Mya was just looking at him.

            “OK.”  She said, sitting on the bed, but she did not sound too sure.

            Nathan nodded and opened the bathroom door, just to check things out, not that he had to go or anything.  He turned on the light and paused at the sight in the mirror that greeted him.  It was his own reflection, and he was first of all surprised that he even had a reflection.  “Of course, I’m not a vampire.”  He mumbled to himself and grinned at his own humor.  Then he touched his teeth.  They looked good, better than he had seen them in some time.  He had let them go a little and raised his eyebrows at himself for that thought.  Then he wiggled his eyebrows and looked quickly at his hand.  It was still fairly wrinkled, but not so bad, and most of the age spotting was gone.  He looked again at his face.  The hair was still gray, but there seemed more of it, and in fact he thought that maybe he looked more like he had when he retired at about seventy-two, or maybe when he first retired at sixty-eight.  He definitely did not look eighty-four, and it was the first time he admitted that while Mya was growing up, he was getting younger.  It was also the first time he wondered if they might meet somewhere in the middle.

            “Let me see.”  Mya pushed her way into the room and Nathan backed up.  She smiled at her reflection, pouted her lips, checked out the curve in her eyebrows and puffed her chest out, but there were no bumps yet.  “I am growing up.”  Mya said with some excitement.  “I am.”

            “Yes you are.”  Nathan confirmed as he turned away.  “But right now I am tired, even if you are not.”    He lay down on the bed.  “Funny our not being able to eat but our being able to sleep.”  He reached down and pulled up the hospital blanket that was folded at the foot of the bed, and let his head rest on the pillow.

            “We’re not asleep yet.”  Mya said as she turned out the bathroom light and crawled under Nathan’s blanket.  She curled up with him like any young girl might curl up beside her grandfather on a cold winter’s night, and Nathan willingly slipped a protective arm around the girl.  Neither was uncomfortable with the arrangement and soon enough they were both fast asleep.

People, take a chance to relax a little at the beginning of the week and to prepare for a good weekend.

Series:  Strange Tales   Story:  Ghosts   by M Kizzia   part 4         

            “Do you know your Grandmother’s name?”  Nathan asked, finally breaking the silence.  They had walked right into the hospital lobby through the sliding doors which opened readily for them.  One young man in the waiting area gave the doors a strange and uncomfortable look when they opened and no one came in, but otherwise neither Nathan nor Mya caused any disturbance.  Now that they reached the front desk, though, Nathan had to ask.  He decided it would be far easier to look her up than wander the halls for half the night.  The sun was already nearly set.

            “Marylin Thorn.”  Mya said without hesitation.  Nathan nodded and started to reach for the front register when he heard a woman’s voice.

            “Marylin Thorn is in room 317.”  The woman behind the desk said without once looking up.

            “Thank you.”  Mya responded.

            “Yes, thanks.”  And Nathan hustled Mya away from that area.  He did not want to scare anyone.  Without thinking things through, both went to the elevators and Mya pushed the button.

            “Mother always lets me push the buttons.”  She said.  Nathan wondered how this was going to work out.

            When the elevator came, there was one man in the car.  He did not get off as they scooted by, but he did stick his head out the door to see if there was anyone there.  The man shrugged and stood back while the elevator doors closed and Nathan stopped Mya’s hand from pushing the button for floor three.  He noticed they were going down one more flight.

            “But we have to go to three.”  Mya protested at full volume.

            “Shh!  I know.  Just wait, please.”  Nathan answered as quietly as he could and he saw the man lift his head as if he was hearing something but he was not quite sure what he was hearing.  Fortunately, the doors opened fairly quickly and the man got out, stiffening his collar tight against his neck as if suddenly chilled.  “Now.”  Nathan said, and Mya pushed the three just before a big woman got on and pushed four, frowning once at the man who just left.  Nathan matched the woman’s frown, because he thought if the woman stood by the doors, there was no way they would be able to scoot around her to get out on the third floor.  Fortunately, the woman pushed to the back and Nathan and Mya were just able to squeeze past her without touching her.  They got off quickly when the doors opened on three before someone else got on.

            “Three seventeen, now let’s see.”  Nathan said, looking at the numbers and arrows on the wall.

            “Down here.”  Mya said, taking Nathan’s hand and leading the way.  Now that she was on the floor, she was remembering better.  In fact, Mya was finding her memory and her mind overall was becoming very sharp and focused.  She was thinking and seeing life through pre-teen eyes by then because she was indeed growing up even as Nathan was getting younger, not that they knew it, exactly.  His mind, by contrast, was mercifully forgetting all sorts of embarrassing and difficult moments as the years dropped away, even though his mind was also sharpening overall with the clarity of youth.  With Nathan, though, he thought it was only how he felt.  That long walk down so many city blocks, and without the least hint of pain or difficulty, had done him wonders.  But with Mya it was becoming obvious if they cared to notice.  Still, they really did not realize any of this until Grandma noticed, and said as much when they saw her.

            “She has Alzheimer’s.”  Mya warned before they entered the room. 

            What they found was a bit of a surprise.  The woman was physically curled up in a ball, her knees drawn up to her chest and her hands in tight little fists pulled right to her chin; but that was just her body.  The woman herself, or at least the image and outline of the woman, like her spirit or her ghost, was sitting up, legs outstretched and hands resting comfortably at her side.  The woman appeared to be asleep at the moment, so they came in quietly and Mya pulled up a chair.  As she sat, she reached out.  “Grandma?”  And she found that she could touch the woman, or at least she could touch her grandmother’s spirit hand.

            Grandma opened her eyes slowly.  “Mya.”  She recognized the girl right away; her spirit-self did all the talking and was very animated.  The body in the bed, by contrast, barely fluttered her eyes.

            “Grandma.  I wanted to see you.  I – I.  Are you better?”

            “No dear.”  Grandma said, taking a firm hold of Mya’s hand and reaching over with her other hand to pat-pat that hand.  “I’ll be gone soon I think.  Sometimes the body doesn’t have the good sense to quit, but I am very sick, Pneumonia, you know.  Still, I am content to wait.  It would be wrong to rush these things, though I hope they have the good sense to let me go when the time comes.”  She stole a glance at Nathan before returning her eyes to her granddaughter.  “But now stand up so I can get a good last look at you.”  And while Mya stood, Nathan was thinking that this woman’s body might be wracked with Alzheimer’s and pneumonia, but her spirit seemed strong and healthy and very aware.  It was something that people – living people should know.  Too bad there was no way to tell them.

            Mya turned once slowly all of the way around.  Nathan had his hands at his side at the moment and he noticed that presently the little girl was nearly as tall as his elbow where she had started out barely as tall as his wrist.

            “My, how grown up you are getting.”  Grandma made the expected comment before adding a thought.  “What are you now, nine or ten?  Pretty soon you will be getting bumps of your own.”

            “Grandma.”  Mya protested, sounding like a true pre-teen, and she sat, turning a little red and glanced briefly at Nathan.

            Grandma explained for the stranger in the room.  “When Mya was just a baby with a limited vocabulary she called them bumps every time she wanted to nurse.”  Grandma was smiling and Nathan was smiling, too, as he looked at Mya and watched her turn a bit redder.

            “Grandma.  This is my friend.”  Mya said, attempting to change the subject.

            “Nathan.”  He introduced himself.  “You have a fine granddaughter.  She missed her school bus, so I took it upon myself to bring her to see you.  I have a great-grand just about her age.”

            “Very gentlemanly of you.”  Grandma said.  “But I should say, posh!  You hardly look old enough to have a ten-year-old granddaughter, much less a great-grand.”

            “Grandma, I’m only seven.”  Mya said, though that did not sound right at the moment even to her own ears.

            Grandma lifted her brows and her body shifted ever so slightly in the bed.  “You know I cannot speak to your mother like I can to you.  That is very frustrating.  I tend to sleep a lot when she is here.”  Grandma sat up a little straighter and her body moved a little again.  “I think you had better tell me what happened.”

            Mya started slowly, but she finished the story in a rush, leaving out nothing, including the part about the angel.  Nathan found some tears as she talked, and Mya had some tears as well.  Grandma’s eyes filled up with tears, but it was her body that let a few of those tears fall while she went back to patting Mya’s hand, saying, “My baby.  My poor baby.”

            “It will be all right, Grandma.”  Mya was trying hard to be positive about it all.

            “I won’t leave her alone.”  Nathan said.  It was a promise.

            “I am so glad that you are not alone.”  Grandma said, finally taking her hands back.  “He seems a fine man.  Don’t be afraid.”

            “That is what the angel said.”  Mya responded, and as she thought about the angel, she found her tears were finished and she was feeling much better.

            “I am so sorry, my baby, but right now I am tired.  I am so very, very tired.”  And they watched as the old woman closed her eyes.  A few more tears fell from the woman’s physical body. 

Mya did not want to leave right away, so they stayed for a little while and watched the old woman sleep, but soon enough Nathan stepped up and put his hands gently on Mya’s shoulders.  He helped her rise from the chair.  He wanted to get her moving before the tears returned, but he was not quick enough.  Mya threw her arms around him and cried into his belly, while he smoothed her long black hair with his hand and patted her back, making reassuring sounds.  He led her back into the hall just before the nurse came into the room.

            “It will be all right.”  He told her.  “Everything is going to be all right.”  And he helped her down the hall only to stop in front of the water fountain.  “Are you thirsty?”  She was.  There was a tall water fountain there, and a second fountain which was lower to the ground for the children.  Mya had to stand on her toes, but she seemed delighted that she could reach the big fountain.

            “I don’t want to stay little forever.”  She said when she pulled back from the water.  Some of the water dripped off her chin and down the front of her dress.  She looked and wiped the water with her hand, but she was looking at her chest.  “When I get breasts, I hope they are nice ones.”  She said.

            Nathan felt a little embarrassed on hearing that.  He could hardly say I hope they are, too; but he felt he had to say something.  “I would not think that was so important.”  That was what he said.  When she looked up at him with deep questions in her eyes, he put his foot in it.  “Breasts are for babies, right?”  He regretted saying that as soon as it was out of his mouth.  Mya wailed and began to cry again in earnest.  The nurse came out of the room and looked up at the ceiling before shivering a bit and walking hurriedly back to the nurse’s station.  Poor Mya was wracked with tears, and all Nathan could do was hold her and let her weep.  He dared not say anything more.  He dared not open his mouth.  But when she collapsed to the floor, Nathan got right down with her.  “There, there.  It will be all right.”  He felt he could say that much, even as he was finding a few tears of his own.

            After a time, when Mya’s and Nathan’s eyes were both red, and Mya’s breathing was only interrupted now and then with moments of sniffles, Nathan got out his handkerchief and found it was clean, so he took a corner to wipe her face and have her blow her nose

Series:  Strange Tales   Story:  Ghosts   by M Kizzia   part 3

            “Oh, look.”  Mya spoke first.  There was a puppy on a leash looking right at them, wagging his tail and panting with his tongue.  It was a little Labrador and obviously very young.  Mya let go of Nathan’s hand to get down and pet the puppy.  She did not think about it, she just did it, and the puppy responded with a lick.  “Oh, cutie.”  She called it.  The woman on the other end of the leash was gabbing with another woman.  Mya did not care about that.  “Yes, cutie.”  She said, and she looked up at Nathan who was smiling.  “Come and say hello.  He won’t bite.”

            Nathan was reluctant to squat down.  He was very afraid for his knees, but as he did, he found that his knees were well up to the task and did not hurt at all.  That was as much pleasure for him as a chance to pet the puppy.  The puppy responded by lifting its paws to his shoulders and giving him a lick.  Everyone was smiling and happy until the woman jerked the leash.

            “Egbert, behave!”  The woman said sternly and she tugged a couple of unkind tugs on the leash until the puppy came to obedience at her feet.  The woman had a cruel streak in her and Nathan was surprised at how strongly he felt the woman’s cruelty.  He looked down at Mya and saw that her eyes were wide.  She felt it too. Nathan and Mya did not interfere, even when the puppy looked at them, sadly.  “Yes, Egbert is an old family name.”  The woman was saying.  “I promised my mother I would use it for one of my children.”  The woman laughed; or at least Nathan and Mya guessed that the sound was supposed to be a laugh.  The two women returned then to their inspection of the disaster, and since neither Mya nor Nathan were interested in going there, they said good-bye to the puppy and walked, hand in hand in the opposite direction

            “Poor Egbert.”  Mya said.  “He is going to have to live his whole life with that name.”

            “Poor Egbert.”  Nathan agreed.  “And with that woman.”  He added, but his mind was on other things, and at once he saw what he was looking for.  There was a distraught looking young man sitting on the curb, ignoring everything that was going on around him as if lost in deep thought.  Nathan stopped their forward progress for a good, long look.  The young man’s black hair appeared unmoved by the wind, though of itself that meant nothing.  He decided a comparison was in order so he looked back at the woman and her dog.  He was astounded.  The woman behind looked as real as any he saw in life, but the young man on the curb looked more real.  It did not make sense, but that was the only way he could understand it.

            Mya, who had been standing still and patient, got it at about the same time.  “He’s a ghost.”  She said.  Nathan nodded, and he was fairly sure that this was the ghost of the suicide bomber.

            “Hello, friend.”  Nathan interrupted the man’s thoughts.  Nathan had decided that he had no ill will toward the man.  After all, he had lived a long and rich enough life in his own small way.  He did feel strongly for Mya, however, that this man’s actions were decidedly unfair to her, young as she was.  That was why he refused to abandon her, he told himself, though the truth was he felt he needed the little girl as much as she might need him.  “Friend?”  Nathan almost reached out to touch the man’s shoulder, but the man turned suddenly to stare at them with dark eyes filled with fear and hatred.

            “Go away!”  The young man said.  “Why can’t you demons leave me alone?  Go away!”

            Nathan squatted, now that he knew he could do that, and he looked toward the man, eye to eye, though he kept his distance and made no further move to touch him.  “Can I help?”  He asked, feeling Mya squat down next to him.

            “Maybe we could help.”  Mya agreed with Nathan, and there was a slight softening in the man’s eyes as he turned a little to take in the girl.

            “There is nothing you can do.  It is done.”  The young man said through gritted teeth.

            “But what is the matter?”  Mya was very sensitive to the young man’s pain, though that was just a blessing of human sensitivity sometimes found in the very young and rarely found in adults, it was not a hyper sensitivity such as they both had felt in the cruelty of the puppy owner.  Nathan had to catch Mya’s hand to keep her from reaching out and touching the young man softly, as she had petted the puppy.

            “It is done.”  The young man said again, and then he shifted his gaze to the heavens.  “Why am I not in paradise?  They all said I would be in paradise!”

            Mya took the question seriously and responded with the only answer she could come up with.  “Maybe they did not tell you the truth.”  She spoke in her most encouraging voice, but Nathan had to move fast.  He grabbed Mya around the middle and pulled her out of reach just as the man’s face turned wicked, and his arms, with hands formed like claws, reached out to scratch her, to grab her, to hurt her in whatever way he could.

            “Leave me alone, demons!  They warned me about your wicked tongues.”  The young man shouted, but very quickly a voice of reason interrupted, coming from the side of the confrontation.

            “Surely you did not believe the slaughter of the innocents was your ticket to heaven.”  The voice said.

            “Liar!  You are all liars!  I will listen no more!  Leave me alone, you demons!  Leave me alone!”  He had his hands over his ears so there would be no talking to him, and he turned his face back to the curb.

            “There is no reaching him at present.”  The voice said, and Nathan and Mya turned to see something they both expected to see and dared not hope to see.  Mya shivered and went straight to her knees, drawing a hesitant Nathan down with her.  It was not that Nathan did not believe in what he was seeing, but rather his rational, worldly mind was more developed, and after all, he had never seen an angel before.  He felt it, though, in his deepest marrow; that sense of awesome wonder, and not a little fear that showed in the trembling in his bones and in the pit of his stomach – that sense that he was naked in a way he had never been before and that sense came with the realization that not every corner of his naked life was exactly clean.  It made him lower his eyes, not that he could have looked into the golden glare of those orbs regardless of how much they smiled.  He imagined Mya, being seven, had far less filth on her plate, but then he did not know for sure.  It does not take some people very long at all to build up all sorts of wickedness in their lives.  Maybe she felt it more strongly and that was why she humbled herself first of all. 

            “Some people prefer to live in a box.”  The angel spoke and both Mya and Nathan could do nothing but listen.  “They imagine they have put God in a box and believe that they understand his eternal, almighty nature, but in reality, all they have done is box up their own minds and hearts.  You must pray for him before the box becomes as hard as concrete.”  The angel paused and both Nathan and Mya ventured to look up.  Perhaps they were drawn to do so.  The Angel was looking at someone beside him.  It was the old woman from the bus.  Nathan was sure of that, even if she no longer looked like the old woman.  She had become, well, it was hard to tell what age exactly; like she was ageless, young one moment but very old as well.  What is more, she looked all sparkly, like Christmas lights on a grand old tree, and the lights were blindingly bright even if they looked dim beside the glowing presence of the angel.  Anyway, her eyes were on the angel and she was smiling, even when the angel turned again to look at Mya and Nathan.

            “Do not be afraid.”  The angel said.  “For you there are two times, a time between and a half time.”  And then it was gone – the angel was just not there anymore, and the young suicide had gone as well, probably run off somewhere.  The sparkling woman turned toward Mya and Nathan.  Nathan was not quite sure where the woman’s eyes were focusing, so he could not be sure if she saw them or not or if her smile was for them or not, though he liked to think it was.  All he could say for sure was her sparkling presence got very bright for a moment before she vanished as surely as the angel.

            Nathan had tears in his eyes from the strain of all that bright light, or so he told himself.  Mya also had tears in her eyes, but neither of them felt sad in the least.  Indeed, when Nathan helped the girl up from the sidewalk, she seemed elated.  Her hands had been held palm to palm in the classic image of a child at prayer, and though she readily gave up her pose to take Nathan’s hand once again, she still seemed to be praying, so Nathan kept quiet.  Thus, neither said a thing as they walked the many blocks to the hospital.

Everyone dies in part 1.  My son thought that would make it a very short story, but that is where the story begins.

Series:  Strange Tales   Story:  Ghosts   by M Kizzia   part 2

            Nathan opened his eyes.  He was sitting on a park bench up on a grassy knoll, looking through an iron picket fence at a very confusing street scene.  People were running around, screaming, while cars and trucks were screeching to a halt in both directions and things, big pieces of things were falling from the sky.  Nathan felt the little hand in his hand and he looked down to see Mya staring up at him, her legs dangling from the edge of the bench where they did not quite reach the ground.

            “I think we are dead.”  Mya said.  There was no sorrow, no fear and no surprise in her voice.  She just simply said it outright like it was the most obvious fact.

            “No.”  Nathan quickly shook his head.  “We were blown free of the explosion, weren’t we?”  They were blown free to land perfectly side by side on a park bench?  He wondered.  Perhaps they crawled up on the bench before they became fully aware of what they were doing?

            “I think we’re dead.”  Mya repeated herself and she turned her eyes from his old face to the strange goings on in the street.  She was holding his hand, too, or rather her little hand was engulfed in his wrinkled old paw, but she seemed perfectly content with that and in no hurry to break free.

            “No.”  Nathan said again, but there was no conviction in the word.  He also looked to the street and realized that everything seemed to be moving in slow motion.  Pieces of the bus were still falling and bouncing very slowly off the pavement.  People were still screaming in long, drawn out sounds while tires were still screeching; and after a moment they both felt something low and loud in the pit of their stomachs which tickled as the pitch rose up the scale.  Mya giggled at the feeling while Nathan identified it.  “The police.  Maybe an ambulance.”

            “Too late.”  Mya said, a deep sadness echoed finally in the midst of her giggle.  She looked again at the face of the old man beside her.

            “We can’t be dead.”  Nathan protested.  “That would make us ghosts.”  He turned his eyes again to that innocent little face, but she looked away.  She straightened her legs and stared at her shoes.

            “I’m afraid of ghosts.”  She said.

            Nathan did what he wanted to do, the world be damned.  He dropped the girl’s hand and put his arm tenderly and lovingly around the little girl’s shoulder, hugging her as he spoke.  “I won’t let any bad ghosts get you.  Hush.  Everything will be all right.”  And they watched for a long time while police cars, ambulances, fire trucks and tow trucks all showed up; while men and women did the work for which they were trained and the innocent pedestrians backed away but stared long and hard at all of the broken pieces scattered in the street and along the side of the road.  They watched the traffic start again, slowly, and it seemed forever that only one lane was  moving at a time, and the cars and trucks went very slowly besides, not to be careful of the workers in the street, but because they, too, wanted to gawk at the scene.  Last of all, there were cameras and reporters who came to make a record of it all for the evening news.  That was when Nathan let out the sigh he thought he had used up, and he looked down again at the little girl beside him.  She was looking up at him, her face a little closer to his than he imagined it would be, and she lifted her hand to touch his face once more, even as she touched him in the bus.  Nathan stayed silent and did not move, letting the girl examine his ancient eyes.

            “You’re not as old as you were before.”  Mya concluded.  “You don’t look as old as my grandmother anymore.”

            Nathan took his arm back and Mya sat up while he looked down at his hands.  He still saw the wrinkles and the age spots, though perhaps not so bad.  The power of suggestion?  Surely his suit was as wrinkled as ever.  He looked at the girl and noticed her legs were not dangling so much.  She could touch the ground with her toes, but then he told himself that this was the way it was before, only he had not seen properly.  He rubbed his eyes a little and spoke.  “Your grandmother is in the hospital?”  This time it was a question.

            “Yes.”  Mya said as she slipped her hands beneath her tight covered thighs in order to let her legs swing free.

            Nathan looked to the sky to judge the time.  The hospital was a long walk, but curiously he felt up to it.  Certainly he did not feel up to trying another bus.  “I know how to get there.  Would you like to go there and see her?”  He asked.  He thought they could reasonably arrive before dark.  “I could go with you.”  He added, in case she did not catch the implication.

            Mya looked up at him once again and nodded.  “Mother says Grandma is dying.  Maybe Grandma could help us.”  The girl made no explanation about what she was thinking, but she also made no move to get off the park bench, so Nathan stood.  He got up like a well practiced old man, expecting his knees to scream, his lower back to protest and his stiff neck to make itself known, but none of those things happened.  To be sure, Nathan felt a little frightened when he realized that he felt nothing at all.  The forever pain, arthritis, agonizing stiffness and constant struggle against gravity were all gone.  Maybe they really were ghosts.  He tried not to think about it too hard, reaching instead for Mya’s hand.  He needed her reassuring touch.

            Mya looked up and readily put her hand in his, realizing that she needed his touch as well.  “You are a very nice man.”  She said, having decided that he was a kind, older gentleman.  She trusted him, and even more importantly, she liked him.  Mya never knew her grandfather very well.  She was only three when he died, but she thought that this man might be like him.  She felt safe when she was holding his hand, and so she took it readily and they began to walk, side by side, to find a place where they could get beyond the fence and back out on to the sidewalk.

            Nathan was growing in his concern about what exactly was going on.  He was walking easily and without pain of any kind.  It was not that he felt he could run or dance or anything like that, but his lack of pain appeared to be the last nail in the coffin, so to speak, and he said as much at last.  “I think we’re dead.”

            “I know that we are.”  Mya said without so much as lifting her eyes.  She was thinking about something and probably thinking about many things, and there was a little tear in the corner of her eye.  They had come to a gate in the fence and stopped so Nathan turned to the girl who was now taller than his wrist but not yet as tall as his elbow, and he put one hand on each of her shoulders and bent down a little to garner her full attention.

            “Now, how do you know we are dead?”  He asked, and he tried to smile his most reassuring smile.

            Mya said nothing.  She simply pointed at her feet and Nathan looked down at two perfectly normal shoes.  He started to shake his head before he gasped.  He had forgotten that she was lame, a cripple with a misshapen foot.  He had forgotten about the funny shoe which had evidently been designed to help her walk.  He looked at the girl’s feet and honestly could not remember which foot it was.  Both shoes looked identical and normal, and Nathan had no doubt the feet inside were normal, too.  He let go and took a step back.  Mya looked up at him and almost showed some fear.  Her eyes said, please don’t leave me alone.  Please, I don’t want to be alone.

            Nathan caught the look and returned one hand to pat the girl gently on the shoulder.  “Let’s go see your grandmother.”  He said, and then he turned toward the gate and tried hard not to hesitate.  He was not sure if he could open the simple latch, being a little afraid that his ghost hand might pass right through the solid metal.  That would have frightened him perhaps beyond repair, so it took a great deal of courage to get his fingers to reach out.  When he took hold of the latch, he let out his breath and heard Mya do the same.  The gate easily swung open, and then Nathan stepped aside “After you.”  He said, graciously and raised his hand in an inviting gesture.  Mya smiled for him.

            “Thank you.”  She said, trying very hard to sound like a real lady, and they stepped out of the gate and back into the real, everyday world, Nathan being sure to close the gate tight behind them.